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Right now, in this moment, I am having to walk out all I have learned, been trained in, and claim to believe. Can I share something?....it is a LOT easier to talk about it than to have to actually do...to come from where i was, to where i am, in such a short period of time was a mind blowing miracle of God! It is great, but the thing is life didn't just become a cake walk and all...it is still very very very tough. In the past 8 months I have had everything I could ever imagine, lost some, and gained more. I've been in a relationship with a beautiful woman of God, worked in ministry, been prepared and ready to start back in college, and asked to speak all the time. Now, all of a sudden, i am single (hello ladies..hahaha), waiting tables, and hardly get to speak to more than a group of friends hanging out. WHAT THE HECK is going on? Why God? What did i do? Where are you? Am I in trouble? Did i miss something? Do You have something better? These are all question i find myself asking Jesus. Most of them are humorous if you actually think about them, but I'm just being real with you guys. In my past when things would have gotten "bad" like this i would have given up and quit. The difference is i know my God. I trust Him even when i don't want to. I believe His promises. All I'm hearing Him say is "Philip, GET BACK UP...get UP son." See all the things i mentioned early about having 8 months ago are great...but Jesus is better. I believe He wanted to show me quickly the blessing He had for me. God gave me all these things so quick b/c He loves me and knew i needed to see Him at work in my life b/c i was growing in Him. Now comes the hard, but oh so rewarding part....working on my fruit (long suffering seems to be the main one right now....) Though i have made mistakes none of them are the reasons for the "things I've lost" recently. This is just life. We as Christians have to work everyday on knowing Jesus better and walking this life out with Him. Though most of the changes haven't been life shattering, I have learned and grown so much from them it is crazy. God is showing out in my life every time i take the time to look. Every promise He makes are true! He is ALWAYS FAITHFUL! Now in this moment, season, period of my life I am stepping out of the boat, standing on the water, and trusting God for everything. He is always GOOD! I'm slowly learning to trust God in every area of my life. He knows whats best. He has had it planned out from the beginning. God is the compass that keeps me strait. Knowing Him more and seeing Jesus made famous is my mission. Nothing is allowed to get in the way...I have PURPOSE!...in Jesus. My plans aren't always God's plans. My vision must shift to match His. My steps must match the ones Jesus laid out for me LONG LONG LONG ago. I know this..I have a God, a Daddy, who loves me unconditionally. We don't earn, nor lose, His love. It just is! Quite yourselves and listen for His voice. He wants to speak to us tonight! Psalm 37:7 is what I'm sticking to right now. I want to encourage everyone to read the entire chapter if you will ;)...haha...i guess through all of this I'm trying to say that..."Jesus loves me just the way I am...and nothing can fill the place of Him." Things are good, but Jesus is better!!!!