MoMeNt

The other night i was with a friend, well two friends actually. Me and my buddy were praising and hanging out with God. I've been praying hard for God to show me what it is He has for me. Like really really hard. As i was talking with Daddy he began to take me back to moments in my life. One at a time God took me to actual moments I have gone through. Starting at a very bad time. I saw myself getting high, i saw myself having my first real encounter with God, i saw myself worshiping in truth for the first time. I saw myself a/b to kill myself. I saw myself broken and beat down crying out to Jesus, I saw myself making a decision to NOT go back but to press forward toward the highest calling. All kinds of moments. Then i saw the very moment that was happening. Like an out of body experience where i was watching the here and now. I got exciting b/c i just "knew" he was a/b to show me my future. Boy was i excited. When it was time to see it (i knew the next scene was a/b to happened) God showed me ............ nothing? Wait a second...this isn't it.... what's going on God? All i saw was a blank white screen almost. Like i was staring at a TV that had a white screen. OK, OK God. Your obviously not ready to show the future yet. Then this morning God gave me my daily manna, revelation. When someone is soooo zoned in on something they can't see the big picture. All i could see what this blank white screen. God's just screaming to us...back up....back up...back up...As we begin to back up we realize God has painted this beautiful picture of our lives, but we are soooo zoned in on something (what's next God?) it's like our face is smushed up against this beautiful painting. All we can see is one color. Then we begin to back up and see more colors...more colors...more colors...WoW....What a beautiful painting it really is!!! Thank you Father for loving me enough to paint a picture for and about me!